i like her

i like her is the debut poetry collection of the poetry series
fucked up little cocktail.

i created this poetry series as a way to communicate to those things and to those people who disregarded my truth, didn’t allow me to have a voice, and robbed me of my authenticity. this book begins with childhood trauma and is written in very raw and emotional pieces, many of which are written to my father.

it just began pouring out of me one day. i would type with a vengeance while sobbing, sometimes writing through panic attacks. i would type until i felt it was absolutely all i could take. and then i would go take what i affectionately refer to as a “ttpd bath.” i turned taylor swift’s ttpd up in the speaker, turned off the lights, lit a candle, and ran a bath as hot as i could stand and as i soaked, i continued to sob until i had absolutely nothing left. and then i would get out and dry off and crawl in bed to sleep.

that went on every day for two or three weeks. it was probably the most healing experience i have had thus far, emdr therapy and guided meditations are a very close second.

and then my book sat completed for months. i was afraid. fear of failure, mostly. a close second was how it might affect others, especially my daddy.

in the end, i chose me.

i chose my truth. i chose my voice. i chose my purpose.

and i chose you.

when you hold this book, you will be holding a piece of my soul.